As if my month couldn’t get crappier, I forgot to call my baby sister on her birthday (December 6th). I’m such a shitty sister, and all I want to do is kick myself in the teeth.
So sorry, Marbs–you know I love you, and I will totally make up for it.
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Two hours of yoga, and all I could think about (aside from how I was out of the running for Big Sis of the Year) was whether or not I really wanted to stay here for another twelve months.
Just canceled my interview. Sorry, Bonnie, I know you pulled some strings for me.
Maybe it’s just the weather, or the holiday season, but between stretches and sit-ups all I did was doubt. Sure, I have a routine here, but is it really a life? Can I really put myself through another hagwon? At times it was rewarding, but it was too stressful. I teetered over the edge more than once or twice. (Keep in mind, though, that I am completing a contract for the notorious Wonderland.)
These days I ache for my family.
I haven’t completely written off another year in Korea. But it is a possibility I need to analyze over and over, and I’m going to need more than a month to decide.
Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
I know. It’s disappointing.
I don’t know if I’ll even keep the blog up. It’s pointless to keep it up, because it’s pretty much based on my life here in Korea.
God forbid you move someplace else and continue blogging your experiences there.
I don’t read this blog to learn about Korea, I read because I like to see what Pia is up to, and because you’ve said and experienced some profound shit in the past (almost) year and a half.
Thanks, Jeff.
But I don’t know how much I’ll have to work with once I’m back in NorCal . . . besides strawberry pie and Wal*Mart, which I reckon you won’t find too interesting.
Plus, I really have to focus on my future. I spend a lot of time working on this blog, and I have to think about school, and just meeting the requirements to go to school . . . it’s a bit overwhelming.
I might keep the blog up, but it would be more condensed–or I might make a move to LiveJournal, which seems more appropriate for quickies. If I do switch blogs, at least I won’t have to be anonymous anymore.
jeff’s right. While I like to read about your times in Korea the most important thing that I read this for is to see how you’re doing.
And I even though moving back to the states is not nearly as interesting as Korea, I’ll still want to hear about your life back here, because, well–I’m on the other side of the country and don’t get to see you regularly.
Well, I would still be able to keep the peeps updated on LiveJournal.
Anyway, nothing’s set in stone just yet. I like having this blog (as time-consuming as it is). But look back to 2005, when I first started the blog, as opposed to now. There’s a huge difference with content.
“Musings” is going to get pretty boring after I get back to Cali. Finding a job, getting into school, eating pie zzzzzzzzzz.
But I’ll keep posting pictures here and on Flickr. I have loads of Japan photos to dump on you guys.
awesome, and now that my buddy brian and his girlfriend andrea are moving to berkeley in january. I’ll be able to visit more.
I like LiveJournal, because it’s a community, and the problem I had with blogger and the rest was always that I felt like I had to write more
when sometimes I felt that I didn’t have more to say than a paragraph.
Can you imagine the worker who really thinks the fact that they are super detail oriented or a perfectionist is their greatest weakness? ,